Yesterday Ger-gurl got her UPSR results..... She has just made my day, with her 5As!!! I'm so proud my daughter....
Za-Za continues with his obsession of PSP games. Though very calculative with his own money, he was actually willing to fork out RM200.00 to purchase his own PSP game. Whatelse if not the Smackdown Vs Raw 2007.... Well, the game though advertised on TV is yet available at the local store below my office. Za-za asks me about it every minute....
Ten-ten upsetted me last night though.... We were purchasing chocolates for Za-za to bring to school today, when he asked me about rewards for Ger-gurl for doing well in her exams.... Me being myself asked him what about my rewards... my gift... as today is my BIRTHDAY...the 38th...
"You tak pe la...tak payah la...dah senior..dah season...."
That shaterred my whole world...as he knew how important my birthday was, from the very start of our relationship... He just never took the trouble... and it happens every single birthday since I was with him.... No suprises... No special gifts.... No flowers...EVER!!
Although he does every other thing for me in this life... What is really important to me...and he knows it too...is never taken seriously....CALL ME SELFISH... BUT THAT'S WHAT I FEEL!!!
I love you Ten-ten
Finally, Saturday comes.....Today is the first day in so long that I'm able to sleep in... relax..laze around before getting up. TEN~TEN has just come home from sending GER~GURL to her school. It's Hari keluarga today, and she has to mend her class stall.
What sucks is as parents, we have to contribute that too. YUCKS!!! That's the worst of it... something that neither TEN~TEN nor me like to do.... But we have to.
At least the house cleaner is here now... To clean up our one whole month of house mess.. In time before MAMA comes back from Penang tomorrow.
Look at my BEAUTIFUL GER~GURL and ZA~ZA's pictures....
MY hands are ITCHY.... It feels like I really need to spend..spend..and spend on something nice for myself.... I LOVE to do that...But then...when I do...I get guilty, and wished that I had spent on the Kids instead.
TEN~TEN on the other hand, practically NEVER spends on himself...
I have decided TODAY, for the umpteenth time, to learn to RELAX. I have not been very successful lately, especially when I feel the need to perform, putting myself against ME as a comparison. I guess sometimes I really do set high standards for myself..... Learning from my MENTOR, .... My Boss...
I must say that I'm really blessed... YA ALLAH... Alhamdulillah... I Thank You....
I have a very accomodating partner in life, attending to ALL my wimps and fancies..... I'm so worried of losing him...
I have a beautiful daughter, who is so immensely talented, so ever carefully on not hurting my feelings... that she often keeps her problems to herself..... She wants to be an ANIME artist...
I have a cute little son, who is so particular, immaculate and demanding at the same time... Head full of questions,... Mind full of innovative creations.... He wants to be a scientist and film director at the same time.... wishes to own a red ferrari and a lamborghini...
I have a healthy mother who is strong, yet lonely and worried... wish I could be of more help...
I have to learn to ENJOY My Life,... My Journey.... that is only experienced this once... never again..... Learn to Relax.....
