A Wee Bit Restless...

I'm sitting here on my bed in this budget hotel in Ipoh, waiting for time to go to the stadium again for the semi-finals between Mira's school, CBN and Puteri Seremban. I'm very confident that our girls are able to take it to the finals and come out as champions, yet I can't help but feel restless....

I just want to get this whole game over and done with, and let us just take the trophy back with us!! Woo Hoo!!

I am also restless as a result of this freaking ears!! Well at least the infected ear is almost completely recovered. Now it is the other ear that's bothering me, the one that is blocked!! Every time I apply the ear drop, it gets blocked. Isn't it supposed to melt all the stuff??? Actually, I'm getting used to all these muffled sounds....;p

Let's see.... What else is on my mind!! Oh dear, I'm in for trouble, as I forgot to give my Mom, who's in KL, a call!!! I'm DEAD!! I'll call her now...pause ||

Done!! She's well, but as expected...."Ingat dah tak mau call dah!!". Managed to weave my way out of that one... I'm really so grateful that I have a Mom! Alhamdulillah... every thing else does not seem as important any more...

Ok, now, it's time again, I feel, to count my blessings:

• I am so grateful that I'm given life of abundance... technically lately, it has never really really been 'not enough'. We always manage....
• I am so grateful for the wonderful and balanced family that I have today.
• I am so grateful for the health that I have been granted with.
• I am so grateful for the health of my husband.
• I am so grateful for the health of my children, Amirah & Adeil.
• I am so grateful for the health of my Mom.
• I am so grateful for the material things that we have, the cars, the house that we live in, the completeness of everything.
• I am so grateful for the jobs that both Ten~ten and I have, that is providing us with a steady income.
• I am so grateful for the new lecturing job that I am about to get and the approval to do my PhD, which allows me to spend more time with my family.
• I am so grateful that I am able to get Mira a place in England to further her studies.
• I am so grateful, I am so grateful, I am so grateful!!!!

What is so wonderful about writing in my blog is.... though I started out restless, I am not anymore.... and I am now really so overwhelmed with the feeling of gratefulness... We actually have soooo much to be grateful for...All of us. It is just that we often find comfort in sorrow and self pity...

Hmm....Whatever it is, CBN are champions of Premiere Schools!! 

Have I Grown Wiser?

As I sit here waiting for my turn at the hair salon, I have time to look.... I mean really look at myself. Wow.... I've really got a lot of grey hair!! I supposed I'm not one of those strong headed (don't know whether that is the right word for this context) who are against colouring their hair just to cover the grey ones. I really don't
know when I would be ready for that...

Looking at me now, I have a good mind to call Delina to set for a root touch up appointment. But.... that's not the priority now is it. I have other things to focus on. For one, my baby girl is sitting for 3 more exam papers before leaving with her hockey team mates for Ipoh..... and I can't send her off as I have to report to work today. At least I shall be taking the rest of the week off!! Yeayy!!

Second is I have to allocate budget for our hotel stay and food in Ipoh ourselves....
Now...coming back to my grey hair, it got me thinking, have I grown wiser today with all these grey hairs on my head (& that's not the only place....lol). My answer would be:
"Why YES Hanani,you have definitely grown wiser these past
10 years that I've known you!"


Well, for one, I'd like to think that my temper is very much more controlled. Second, I try not to CHANGE my spouse' personality too much (hahaha). Actually, I do appreciate him as he is & things I know he'd rather not do, I'll do it myself. After all he does ALL, and I repeat ALL our laundry, including my mom's.

Being a mother to children with very strong characters has also wisen me up pretty much.

Work is another matter all together. I don't just feel wise...I feel almost ancient! And like any other normal human being, feeling not rumenerated enough. Well that's a different story all together.

For now, I would say that I'm wise enough to know that money is not as important as spending time with my spouse & my children, the most important people in my life. And I'm adamant
to make that happen at the turn of the decade, by Jan 2011. I'll find the way.

Signed,
The Wise One....

Random Thoughts on a Sunday Morning....

As I sit here on my bed on early Sunday morning, it is nice to just reflect what has happened during the past week, and what to anticipate in the upcoming week. As usual, I need to get up (dark and) early to open the door for the cleaner...it is my weekly ritual. Looking on the bright side? I'm not the one doing the cleaning of the house. Hmmm... I could just hear the vacuum working away.....(Simply wonderful when it is not you who is operating it...:D)

The steps as the children call it...Starting with the shortest,
(& eldest), me on the right, Mira in the centre & Adeil on
the left....taken after CBN won at Pandamaran.........

It has been quite an exciting week. Firstly because I had 2 and a half days off from work, spending time with my children, picking Mira up from school, visiting Ten~ten at work, having late breakfast with him & Adeil, taking Mira (& Adeil whom I excused from school) for hockey in Pandamaran, CBN winning all games in Pandamaran, etc, etc.... Simply loverley...Weeeeeee:D

Though it was a real pity that Ten~ten couldn't join in the fun at the hockey event, we are really looking forward to the nationals in Ipoh which is only 2 days away....
Yeayyyy!!!

My long lost wedding ring....nicely
'RE-FURBISHED'/ 'REINSTATED'
on my chubby fingers....;p 

What was also wonderful was that my wedding ring which I had not worn for almost (or is it over?) 2 years, as 1 of the diamonds fell out, and the ring had actually broken into 2... was reinstated to not even the original condition, in fact to a better condition!!!! Just collected it yesterday. The 21 diamonds were simply just sparkling, and the entire ring was re-plated with white gold. The damage was only RM160.00. To think that I had procrastinated repairing it as thinking that it may cost me thousands.... A lesson learnt. When you are not sure? ASK.... To top it all, I even got to learn how to use the diamond testing equipment....

Red Devils set that I bought from the talented
Mastura Mustaffa, who hand crafted them herself

I also rewarded myself with a set of Red Devils, handcrafted by a friend. The set is simply gorgeous!! Thank you Mas for lovingly handcrafting it..:)







What however was not so great was the ear infection that I contracted, which till today is not completely recovered. The symptom was the imbalance ear pressure, as though the ear is blocked. I had completed my course of antibiotics last night, yet I find that the condition has improved, but not restored to it's original condition. I still remain positive. Maybe I'll just give Dr. Pearl a call later today....

My son had his twin friends over to sleep over last night. They are really excited, looking forward to their performance today at Wangsa Walk for the LS Band Competition at 4-6pm today. It is really quite unfortunate that Mira has a hockey match with a school from UK at 4pm at DBKL Hockey Stadium. I have to really figure this out and make sure that I could really dash her off from the field to watch her brother perform. After all I have already scheduled Adeil's event to the last in the itinerary. Insya Allah...I'm going to make it happen... Adeil needs the sister's support.

Today is a New Page....

I have not put my thoughts down for a very very long time. Somehow it seems to be easier to lead a life of mediocrity, than to be a significant leader, one that actually makes a difference. But, like any other being, I do want to make a difference. If not to others, to my own family, my wonderful children.

I'm listening to 'the secret' again. (Although it's a DVD, I play it whilst driving...so technically I listen, not watch). Somehow, listening to the possibilities perks me up. Reinforces that success is still possible, blissfulness is still possible, ultimate health is still possible....

What flashes before me as I listen is that...

I have drawn the kind of family I have through practicing 'the secret' (without realizing it).... I believe that since young, I've always been visualizing having a family that is so close, so like friends with each other... so relaxed....and there it is.. I have that exact family now!! I'm so blessed...

So, though it is now almost 6.00pm, today is still a new page in my life, like every day.... I'm going to count my blessings....

• I am so grateful for my great health and the health that my whole family is blessed with...
• I am so grateful for the husband, the best friend that I have...who sticks with me through my temper, my stupidity, my ugliness...and because of all that I feel calm, intelligent and beautiful today...
• I am so grateful for a beautiful and intelligent daughter, who is so careful with her words, so as not to hurt my feelings....
• I am so grateful for a handsome son, who despite the tough front, still is so 'manja' with me and cares for me tremendously...
• I am so grateful for a mother who at 75 is still healthy and 'happy' to be living with me...
• I am so grateful to have a life of abundance, that some people only dream off....
• I am so grateful to have all the material things that I need, to make my life so complete...
• I am so grateful to still be able to communicate with my siblings, and still act as if I'm the youngest of them all (but I really am!)....
• I am so grateful that irregardless of everything else, I'm able to give my children the best education that some people can only dream off.....
• I am so grateful to have friends in need...

The list is just simply endless.... and I shall make it a habit of writing this down every week if not more often....

Alhamdulillah.. writing in this blog again, I have managed to feel lighter, happier, for I have just reminded myself what I have almost forgotten....

that is to...

Live, Love, Laugh.......

I love my life.....